Happiness has more than one face

So i thought that since it had been so long since i first posted that I'd write a little bit about what's been going on with me.
I am in love!!!! I haven't learned how to post pictures yet but as soon as i do i will put some of them on here. His name is James Clark Turner and he goes by J.C. We have been dating almost 5 months and it's been so fun! He is an amazing person and i don't know how i got so lucky.
It's been an amazing and crazy experience all in one, and i won't lie when i say that maybe it's been harder than i thought too. I've dated alot of other guy's but none that I've ever felt so strongly about, had so much fun with, or gotten so close to. And maybe that's the hard part...getting close. I am a naturally closed and Private person by nature, very independent, and this having to rely on someone else and let them in is throwing me for a loop. So the trial for me has been deciding if it's worth it or not, and then just letting it happen. He is a saint for putting up with me. Seriously, i have had panic attacks with this one.
I have also recently started college!! Yes, at the age of 23 I'm finally getting there! I have been doing hair for the last 5 years and while I love it, my brain is ready for something different. I love school!!! Yes i am crazy, but i do. I love wallowing in complexity about subjects that hit me deep. I love arguing different sides and maybe ending up with an opinion that i hadn't originally started out with. I love thinking so hard about things that my head hurts, and finally, i love the feeling that I'm growing and being shaped into something new and better!